Post by PlatinumUmbreon on Jul 23, 2016 19:18:06 GMT
Whew, well then.
I got a pretty big one. Nothing scandalous or bad, but it's just something that has a lot of stigma, being associated with homicidal insanity that I'm still hesitant about revealing on this site. No, I'm not insane, but I'm afraid of getting harassed.
So for now, I'll leave you this: I'm actually heteroromantic asexual. I never wanted to date boys when I turned thirteen until a couple of months ago, and that's because I become close to a close friend and developed feelings for him.
Post by PlatinumUmbreon on Jul 24, 2016 23:05:29 GMT
I'm not a big fan of incest, but it might be my Christian upraising. While I don't support it as much as homosexuality, I guess it's okay for the same reasons as above.
So, ready for the big reveal?
Okay, here goes nothing.
Autism isn't the only thing mentally wrong with me.
I'm also schizophrenic (along with the free clinical depression as part of the package).
I'm a pretty stable person thanks to my medication, but I do get minor auditory hallucinations or moments where I feel like crud every once in a while, but I'm a generally happy and positive girl. Though there is one major thing wrong with me: I'm more paranoid all the time than a person should be.
The autism and schizophrenia are hereditary, from my mother's side of the family, as autism and schizophrenia are common, along with bipolar disorder (thank goodness I didn't inherit that).
Anyways, you guys now know the full truth about how mentally messed up I am.
EDIT: Looked at the Wikipedia page for paranoid schizophrenia. Since some of these symptoms match my own (auditory hallucinations of cruel criticism--always thought that was me punishing myself using my own imagination, slight grandiose delusions of having a creative work becoming popular, and paranoia of being a target of malicious harm if I do a certain action), I'm starting to think I might belong in this sub-type. Certainly seems so, as I'm pretty normal otherwise except in areas where it's affected by autism and the free clinical depression.
Post by SpottedBlades on Jul 25, 2016 15:07:09 GMT
I think incest's main problem is when it comes to having children with your brother or mother, and that messes up the family tree. Also, non-consensual and underage relationships are bad, but then it's not an incest-only problem. Else, as long as you respect the basic rules of age and consent and safety, it's whatever floats your boat. I guess.
And I think I'm a furry too. (if you've read Zodiacstuck up to Karudar or seen my squirrel forumsona, you might have noticed already.)
...You know, after reading that, it occurred to me that I too found parent-child incest off-putting, and it made me wonder why I felt that way. After all, so long as they are both old enough and consenting, it's not in any way morally wrong, so why do I feel averse to it? In doing so, it occurred to me not only why I was off-put by that situation, but also why many people consider it wrong in general: It's a subversion of the relationship they're expected to have. On a specific sense, a parent is supposed to be a sort of authority figure and caretaker (also one of the reasons a student-teacher romance is considered wrong, though that case isn't discouraged by our instincts, while adding the issue of potential favoritism), and on a broader sense, they're supposed to have familial love for each other, not romantic love. More than just cultural, this expectation is instinctual (and the Westermarck effect is one facet of this), likely to promote genetic diversity and prevent the problems that come from inbreeding over multiple generations. It's due to that instinct that people may find a pairing like John/Jade distasteful, despite them never having a familial relationship anyway. My own instinctual aversion to this is not as strong as for many, hence why this never occurred to me, but bringing up the most extreme case (parent-child where the parent did raise the child), it forced me to notice it. I even realized that I do have an aversion to even fringe cases such as John/Jade, I just must have subconsciously ignored it, valuing morality over instinct.
...Sorry about randomly getting philosophical and introspective, the reasoning may have been obvious to you, but it wasn't obvious to me until now. I guess it took myself to answer my own question of why people find incest to be wrong.
Aaaaanyway... We're getting way off topic here (Edit: and sorry Sharkalien I started writing this before you made your post). I'd post a confession about myself to get things back on track, but I don't really have anything to confess. I'm a pretty open person, and the one major secret I do have I don't have the courage to confess.
Tonight, I've been a jerk to some people I called my friends. I've said bad things, I've bragged about myself, made it all about myself. But now I'm feeling real bad. I didn't mean to come off as rude, selfish, violent. I don't know how to handle all of that. I don't know what I can do so they accept me again. I don't want to be left out. I know they won't accept my apologies, but I'll try anyway. I'm sorry. I hope you're not that angry, and that we can still be friends. And if not, well...it's fine. Guess I deserved it anyway. I love you guys.
So I was led to believe that I may have had the chance to make out with my best friend's brother last night, but it didn't happen. I don't actually have feelings for the guy, but he's cute and I am pretty disappointed he never made a move lol - I've been pining for a good smooch lately.
To add to that, I haven't been kissed in 7 years lol.